“Faith does not make things easy. It makes them possible.” – Luke 1:37
Here is the deal – right now, I am in a season of waiting…I am waiting on a promise from the Lord to be fulfilled and let me tell you that if you have never been in a season of waiting, ufffff, it.is.tough.
I’ve been so anxious and struggling lately. I haven’t been focused on anything else, except for my problem. I am going to church and attending bible studies, reading devotionals and sharing scriptures and good quotes online, but you know what I haven’t been doing? Taking them to heart. I’ve not been still. In fact, I have been anything but that. I can read a Word and think “Yes! I hear You Lord” and then I go right back to being anxious and doubting that God will do what He has said He will do.
Why? Why is it so hard to stand on God’s promises? Well, let me tell you, it is not. God doesn’t go back on His promises. He is a promise keeper. What is hard is navigating the waters on your own. What is hard is surrendering control. What is hard is getting out of your own way…getting out of God’s way.
We were not meant to do this thing called life on our own. We are not in control. He is.
Why on earth would you try to take the wheel when God is already in the driver seat? Do you not trust Him?
During this difficult time that I have been having, God reminded me of so many things. He showed me that I was focusing on the wrong things. I was obsessing over a promise that I have received and making that my focus instead of focusing on who God is, who He has called me to be and what I could be doing to draw closer to Him.
I don’t need to obsess or beg God to do what He has already promised me. I just need to walk with Him. I just need to pay attention. I need to “stay woke”. I need to be patient and let God do His thang! He doesn’t need my help.
Today, I heard a sermon on God’s Promises and I was reminded of several things, but the one that stood out the most was this:
“There is a purpose that produces rest. There is a promise that produces peace.”
You know why I’ve been restless? Because I am not resting in Him. You know why I’ve lost my peace? Because I haven’t been nurturing it.
I have been aimlessly living my life out of my own accord and not really putting God at my center. I am ashamed to put this out there, but I am afraid I have become a “Mechanical Christian”…doing what I “should” do, but not really making my relationship personal. I have felt so far away from God lately. I have felt like He is not listening to my prayers.
However, today, I had a revelation from the Lord…
Jesus did not call me to have a robotic faith. He wants me to be real with Him.
God wants me to approach His throne with boldness and assurance. This trial and period of waiting are a testing of my faith. He is crushing me, He is pressing me, and making me into new wine…
He wants me to trust and know. He wants me to yield to His careful hand and let Him break new ground. I don’t have to understand the process, I just have to allow Him to continue to make and mold me into the person that He intends for me to be in order to receive the promise He has for me.
I am not ready yet. I have more stretching and growing to do.
