In exactly 40 days, God willing, I will be boarding a flight to Cambodia…

I am 33 years old and single, just like Jesus was when He was my age. It was also the year in which He was crucified, and a time in His life when He did the most important work of His ministry.  

The fact that I get to live out my 33rd year of life serving others, is INSANE to me. I thank God for His perfect timing. 

Now, I have no real idea of the work I will be doing and exactly how God is going to use me in this next year, but what I do know, is that I can’t even begin to wrap my mind around how fortunate and blessed I am to be embarking on this journey. 

So I lie here @ 3AM, blogging because I feel like I have so much to say about this wild adventure I get to live out, but yet I find myself at a loss for words. Because, although I have a million different thoughts and feelings about what is on the preface of happening in my life, I just can’t imagine how I get to be so lucky to live this life I have been given. 

I’ve done so many things I am not proud of, I feel inadequate in many ways, I still fall short daily and yet God is gifting me the opportunity to do something greater than I could have ever imagined with my life. 

I will never be able to compare to Jesus and I will likely never accomplish even a tiny portion of the wonderful things He did in His life here on Earth. But, I can try to be the best I can be daily. I can do my best to love others well and show them mercy and grace, like Jesus shows me. 

I want to be compassionate, kind and loving. I want to sit with the least of these and love the unlovable. 

I want to help others and speak of His great love. I want others to find hope, peace and joy; even when their circumstance seems hopeless. 

I want to make an impact and change the world, even if it is a tiny part of it. 

My hope and desire is to touch as many lives as possible, plant a good seed and allow it to bloom, in His timing. 

For a long time now, I have known about my purpose but I haven’t been living it. I know what God has called me to and the vision He has given me for my life. Although the task ahead of me be laborious, the reward is worth much more than any tangible thing I could ever incur in this lifetime. 

& that is why I go my friends…

To gain that which could never be afforded to me living in the comfort of a salary, a certain lifestyle or all things cozy and familiar. 

I have spent the last 3 years of my life, learning, growing and enlarging my territory with God. I have cried many tears after heartbreak. Most of them – alone. 

Isolating myself, digging deep and being afraid of what the future would hold when I felt like my whole world was falling apart. Only to find out that in my brokenness, I actually found healing, prosperity and the fullness of God’s love. 

I know my worth, I understand my value, and I have purpose. I don’t want to keep living my life filling it with the nothingness of monetary and material things. I want to live a life of integrity, good character and valor. 

If we aren’t inspiring, what are we doing? If we aren’t helping, what are we doing? If we aren’t loving, then what are we doing? 

God’s greatest commandment to us is love one another and that is what I intend to do. I want a different world for myself and the people I love. I want to actually be the change I wish to see in the world…

Don’t you? 

Matthew 6:19-21

¹⁹ “Do not store up for yourselves [material] treasures on earth, where moth

and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. ²⁰ But store up for

yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and

where thieves do not break in and steal; ²¹ for where your treasure is, there

your heart [your wishes, your desires; that on which your life centers] will be

also.