Y’all! So there is this song called “Every Nation, Every Soul” by Lindy Conant & The Circuit Riders — and it is sooooo good! It’s been my morning song for over a week now. I just love it so much! Usually my morning routine consists of early morning sunrise gazing, prayer time and resting in the Lord. I like to just blast some worship and sit still before the Lord. Recently, I have had some trouble really listening. Things have not been well in my soul. I’ve been anxious and worried about fundraising and really for no particular reason – God is already providing. I guess I just need to be reminded (more often than not) that God is in control.
When I heard this song, despite it being an older song (circa 2016) I just could not stop listening to it. It spoke to the very depths of my soul. As I think about the next 5 months leading up to my launch, I have so many different emotions about this journey I am about to embark on.
I am no longer fearful of what is to come, rather hopeful and curious to see how God is really going to use me. Right now I am juggling so many things, but they are stretching and growing me in ways unimaginable. I honestly never thought I would be in such a great place after my divorce. Not that I didn’t trust that God would see me through it, rather that in the moment, I couldn’t see any silver lining. Yet, here I am – living my best life, thriving and walking in purpose. I still don’t know exactly where this is going to lead me, but I am confident that I am right where God would have me be so that He can use me as He sees fit. Which honestly, is exactly what I want for my life. Before my divorce, I thought I knew what my life plan was and I still have an idea of where this journey will lead me based on the desires that God has stirred up in my heart, but living my life in abandon and going wherever it is that God is calling me just gets me excited about the future.
Naturally, there are things that still somewhat worry me – my family, my little crazy cat Simba, my job, just leaving everyone and everything I love behind and going into the unknown with Jesus. It is a little intimidating but also calms my spirit in a way that I can’t quite put into words because I know that His plan always prevails.
I spent so much of my time pondering about what God’s plan and purpose was for my life and as I began to really listen to words of this song, it just resonated so well with my soul in this new season of my life. I’ve shared before how God has been teaching me about obedience and when I tell you that I am in awe of what He has done for me in the past 2 and a half years, I just can’t be more grateful to be living my life for the sake of His glory. He truly is worth it all. My job is simple – I must “go out and make disciples.”
There are so many things I still struggle with and so much I have yet to learn, but if I have learned anything at all through my healing process, it is to love well, forgive often and trust in His promises. Even when it doesn’t look promising, I know that God is still working on my behalf.
As I prepare to go out into the nations, I think about what Jesus has done for me and I am so excited to share with others around the world, just how truly amazing He is! We all have different life struggles and crosses to bear, but I think nothing in the world is more comforting than knowing that others, besides Jesus himself, are willing to love you, comfort you and help you in any way possible if it gets you one step closer to experiencing the love of Christ. I just want other broken people to be healed and come to know a God that loves so recklessly that He never stops pursuing us. How great a love of a Savior that longs to reach every nation and every soul, to bring healing, comfort, freedom and redemption to every single one of us. Can you even fathom how significant and important you are to Him? It wrecks my heart. I want to love more like Jesus does and I am so excited to share this journey with you.
Lastly, I just ask that you listen to this song and just let the words penetrate your heart. Listen carefully and ask God to show you what your next step is. Where is He is trying to take you or meet you in this season of you life? When we are open to receive, God is quick to deliver.
I pray love, peace, health and prosperity over each of your lives. Until the next blog my friends! Shalom!
