The last two months I have been through a pretty emotional spiral altogether. It all started when I really began to put an ear to certain negative comments I was getting back as I began to fearlessly share about the WR.
Slowly but surely the good comments came along with the bad and I wasn't ready for them. In my mind there was just no way that anyone could think that what I was doing was a bad idea, but surely there are people who will always be ready to give you their two cents.
But I dont wan't to focus on them in this post, I want to focus on how amazing God is always. Countless times I have been ready to throw in the towel but he pulls me back with gentleness and love. He is showing me that no matter what I hear, good or bad, I can let it go because His purpose for me is that much greater. He is also showing me how much this thing is not about me. I see the need in my mind and as long as I focus on those who will receive what we will give to them from God then nothing else matters.
The ones who are needy, the ones who are thirsty, the ones who need freedom, they ones who just need one ounce of love to change their lives around, they are the ones that are at the top of the priority list. Jesus himself said he did not come for the ones who were well but for the sick. As long as we keep looking at our work through his perspective than that is the only valid reason to keep moving forward. Its when we stop seeing the world through his eyes that we get in trouble.
Im reading a book with my WR pals this season and this story from the bible just keeps tugging at my heart.
The story goes like this:
The kingdom of heaven is like….
A man who found a great treasure in a barren field, a treasure worth more than he could ever make in a lifetime, worth more than the most expensive thing that human hands can buy. He was so excited that he went and buried the treasure in the barren land. He then went and sold all he had just to have enough money to buy that field. Everyone who knew him told him he was crazy, "Why are you buying that field, it's worth nothing, you are making a horrible investment"
or for WRacers it sounds like "Why are you being irresponsible and throwing everything away, what will you come back to?"
But the man just smiled the biggest smile of his life and went and bought that field because HE KNEW how much it was really worth.
God has shown us a piece of this treasure and so we are willing to give everything we have to buy it. Because getting to be a part of Gods plan, getting to see what he is going to do, getting to be a part of his heart, getting to see the TRUTH and LIFE, getting to hear him speak to us, getting a little closer to touching him, getting to be around him, getting to be his entirely for 1 year and for the rest of our lives is worth more than 15,500 dollars, that is chump change in comparison to getting to be around this AMAZING God who would choose US to be around him.
Not too much more i can say for now. Only that I pray that all people will come into His loving heart so that they too will know and understand that its easy giving everything away when what you're getting is eternal.
