I wished away many days of this year, for the moment I could be living my next adventure, doing something other than what was in front of me, the next moment to be immersed with locals of a different country, thinking it would allow me to find more of Jesus.
If it was for me, I would have already been on the field thousand of miles away serving The Lord in communities not like my own. I was originally suppose to leave for the World Race in September, however The Lord kept me in the states, because it wasn’t my time yet to go. There was more My Father wanted to do before sending me….Restoration….He wanted Restoration of my soul, my body, my attention and the relationships In my life.
I felt The Lord telling me to chose to be present. To dive into all He had for me daily, because that’s where I would find Him. Seeking a way to appreciate my day to day living and patiently wait for the Race, I began to journal about each day. Slowly realizing things that didn’t seem so special before, were now becoming the most important parts of my days. I could see a little clearer His presence in my days.
I began to write every prayer, every concern, every desire, every dream. I’ve learned to appreciate the art of journaling. There is something so intimate about writing down the deepest cries of your heart. Some days I look back at what I’ve written and it amazes me what I find. Promises, truth, encouragement, love.
My strongest desire is to surrender all that I am to Him daily.
When writing I’m not afraid to open up and say what needs to be said, I’m not afraid of my failures, I’m not afraid of asking God for help, I’m not afraid to say I want more of you, I’m not afraid to be me. The Lord has allowed journaling to be a way for us to communicate freely and more intimately.
Writing has brought rest, freedom and excitement, into my days.
I pray that The Lord will continue to enter into every crevice of my body and spirit, bringing light into the darkness. I ask The Lord, that as I write down every word, that I would surrender more of me and I fall more in love with Him, who patiently listens to my every cry.
May You too find the blessings He has for you daily.
