hi everyone,
I am overwhelmed with the sweet texts, emails and words that have been spoken to me since I've told everyone this is the plan. As I continue to screw up by doubting that I made the right decision and wonder where this money is going to come from, the Lord continues to place people, verses and stories in my life that remind me that He has the plan and I am just a part of it.
I have been (and still kinda am) afraid that this was just an Abraham and Isaac kinda thing and he was just making sure I was going to do it. I have wondered if all the confirmations I've received before were just coincidences. But the people who I have talked to about this have reminded me that God is so much bigger than 14500 dollars.
I am asking you all to pray hard, that money shows up quick. I need about 1500 more before the 28th of this month. If I don't have it by then, I'll have to reevaluate whether or not God wants me to wait until July to leave or even go at all.
Thanks for going on this journey with me. I know He has a plan.
Something I came across earlier that really encouraged me was something Oswald Chambers (a favorite of mine) wrote in My Utmost for His Highest. Just wanted to share it:
Thank God for the sight of all you have never yet been. You have had the vision, but you are not there yet by any means. It is when we are in the valley, where we prove whether we will be the choice ones, that most of us turn back. We are not quite prepared for the blows which must come if we are going to be turned into the shape of the vision. We have seen what we are not, and what God wants us to be, but are we willing to have the vision "batter’d to shape and use" by God? The batterings always come in commonplace ways and through commonplace people.
There are times when we do know what God’s purpose is; whether we will let the vision be turned into actual character depends upon us, not upon God. If we prefer to loll on the mount and live in the memory of the vision, we will be of no use actually in the ordinary stuff of which human life is made up. We have to learn to live in reliance on what we saw in the vision, not in ecstasies and conscious contemplation of God, but to live in actualities in the light of the vision until we get to the veritable reality. Every bit of our training is in that direction. Learn to thank God for making known His demands.
The little "I am" always sulks when God says do. Let the little "I am" be shrivelled up in God’s indignation – "I AM THAT I AM hath sent thee." He must dominate. Is it not penetrating to realize that God knows where we live, and the kennels we crawl into! He will hunt us up like a lightning flash. No human being knows human beings as God does.
