Be still and know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
Be still. This scripture and phrase that often rings in my head gets me every time. Since I was a little girl I was never that good at being still. I had this reading problem where the florescent lights hurt my eyes so I would sit on my feet so I could shadow my paper to read better. Well in all this work just to see the letters I often fell off my chair or got in trouble for fidgeting and sitting on my feet. And when people ask what kind of sleeper I am I often use the phrase “I’m a thrasher” being still is very challenging to me. However, my Creator, who created me perfect in my mothers womb has commanded me to be still. Sounds a bit confusing if you ask me.
The other day this scripture rang in my head and I knew the Lord was asking me to be still for the whole day. To sit and just be with Him and meditate on this scripture in prayer. As I sat and began to be still about a minute in I caught myself wondering what my friends/team where doing. So I cast my thoughts onto the Lord and refocused. Then about five minutes later I realized I had spent the last few minutes day dreaming about seeing my mom here in Thailand and all that we were going to do. So I cast my thoughts again and this time was frustrated with my self that I couldn’t “be still” in my thoughts. Then all of a sudden I looked at my watch and realized it was mid afternoon and I had gone through my whole worship play list. As I recalled how I spent my day I sat chatting with the Lord about everything. He was telling me about all His hopes and dreams for me. I was pouring out my heart to Him. It’s as if he was sitting next to me on my top bunk the whole time. We sang together, reminisced over memories both old and newer, laughed, cried, and just enjoyed each others company.
At this point in my race I have been away from dear friends and family for over nine months. There are so many day I would have given anything to sit with my dearest friend over a cup of coffee talking, laughing, crying and reminiscing. Quality time with my loved ones always leave me filled up and as I have grown to love my quality time with the Lord it fills me up to a point of over flow on every occasion. However it takes energy and effort to be still with Him but no more energy and effort it would take to meet a friend for a cup of coffee down the street at your favorite coffee spot. Being still often just takes created space in yours day to sit with one verse and your Best Friend to catch up on all your heart is walking through and to hear all His heart has been through with you. And then the days you’re a mess and have no idea where to go next, He may just say “Be still, I AM God”
