When my mobilizer told me I’d be responsible for blogging 2-3 times a week I never imagined it would be so difficult for me! I am not often speechless. These past few months, however, I have struggled to find the right words to express the joy, peace, fear, excitement, anticipation, loneliness, love, and confidence I am feeling! I have written and re-written at least 8 blogs, and still have 4 unpublished drafts!
So- here’s a quick update with no editing or re-writing.
It’s 2015 and that scares me to death. This is the year. Only 6 short months until I leave my family and friends. With that in mind, I am digging in my heals and really investing time and effort into the relationships I have. I know in my heart that the relationships I have now will be different when I return in 2016, because I will be different.
That is an incredible burden on my heart.
Nevertheless, the love and joy I’m experiencing now is so, SO worth it! I am experiencing genuine community in ways I have never experienced before, and I have been overwhelmed time and time again by the depth of the friendships that have Christ in common!
I am humbled by the generosity of my mentor, support of my family, and excitement of my friends. You are all such a fundamental piece in this work of God and I am reminded daily of my reliance on you! You have surpassed my expectations and I am truly thankful!
Our church sings a song that says, “Fire fall down on us we pray.” We sing together about being consumed in the Spirit of God and, looking forward to July, it is my heartfelt prayer! I am so ready to be consumed and my heart is beating out of my chest with anticipation!
I have a never-ending list of To-Do’s, insane amounts of research to finish, and several thousand dollars to raise, but I am at rest. The peace of God truly does transcend all understanding! I am confident that the One who began this work in my heart and life will see it through.
When you see me, hug me! You can ask any questions you have, but please don’t be disappointed when I don’t have an answer. There are so many questions that I can not answer and so many things I do not know, but I trust the One who does.
