For the past week I have been in shut down mode somewhat. When I was trying to explain it to my girls at our last update I realized something…pressing in ALL the time wears you out and is draining. So I stopped pressing in this past week. I think I also was trying to protect my heart from the pain of leaving. Well, it opened wide up this morning when I realized just that, I am leaving. I am leaving a place that has become home. I am leaving people who I have fallen in love with. I am leaving and I have to do this all over again next month. Sucks and is awesome all wrapped up in a pretty bow. Have I said this is going to be a hard year…because day by day I realize more how difficult some moments are. But I am thankful for the moments (which far out weigh the tough ones) that God shines His truth over me and again gives me more and more of His love. So this year will be beautifully-difficult.
Howdy! Well, I am here in Ometepe for my last day. I have tried not to think about leaving and kind of blocked that thought from my head because I knew it would be a hard one to wrap my mind around…and it is. This morning my favorite pal Amalia came running into our room wanting her 1st hug of the day. I wanted to break down right there and hold on so tight and never let go of her. It breaks my heart to think that I will be leaving her tomorrow and I won´t be able to hug her, to kiss her, to tell her how beautiful she is, to love her. Leaving is going to be harder than I imagined it would be. And I don´t know why I thought I would be easy because when you open you heart to love, you open your heart to much more than just that.
I have to sit down and process this month of ministry here at Cicrin. Because I am sure there are more truths that God wants to and will reveal. So expect more sometime soon. We leave in the morning to start the long, and let me say long again, travel back to Mexico City to catch our flight to LA and then to Bangkok. From there we will go to another city (that I cannot remember the name of) a couple of hours away for debrief for a week. Then the whole squad will travel to Vietnam for ministry for 2 1/2ish weeks of ministry. We will be working with AIDS patients and a couple of other ministries.
Please pray for safe travels for all the teams! Also, please pray for our next month of ministry and for yet again another transition. I know it will be amazing!
