They start at 4:00 so if people want to attend a traditional church service, they can. We begin worshipping in the Spirit and then Pastor calls a lady up to the front to be prayed over. God told Pastor Gift that He was going to heal this lady. He prays over her feet and immediately she begins jumping and kicking and praising God. He asks another man to come forward and encourages and prophesy over him.
This is what church is supposed to look like. But why do we run away from freedom in the Spirit and freedom in church? All year God has been teaching me to run no more. To not be afraid of all His goodness and freedom that He offers. It has been a battle for me because I think I know what church is supposed to look like. I think I know how a Christian is supposed to act. I think I know what is truly from the Lord and what is man trying to make a show of worship. I drive myself crazy with these thoughts…and that is why the words, Let God be God, will not get out of my head. It is time these words sink so deep in my skull that I truly and finally let God be God, not me.
I have learned this year how to worship free in the Spirit in a way I never knew was possible. I let that way of worship be an overflow into my life, and I have been transformed. I have been set free of the bondage I never knew was there. Before this trip I really thought I knew what was what when it came to being a Christian. Someone speaking in tongues, well that is just crazy and don’t even get me started on being slain in the Spirit because come on, that doesn’t happen. But slowly and surly I let my walls down and let a little more of God come in. At times I get freaked out and the doubt comes up again but I do not want to doubt anymore. If God is an never changing God then anything is possible through Him. Why do we question what He can and can’t do. He is freaking God, He can do anything He wants to do. And if GOD wants to have His Spirit enter inside you and have you become overcome by that, He will. Why do we question THE ALMIGHTY because he is so unexplainable.
For a long time I have been scared to write these thoughts on my blog. I have been scared to openly admit that my beliefs have changed. That I have seen God work in ways I cannot explain and I have never seen before in my life. But fear of your reaction will no longer control me. I am free in Christ and I choose from today on to be open with the entire world about it. I mean heck, I can tell everyone I meet around the world what God has done to me, but I am afraid to tell those I love more than anything. So praise be to God for freedom that He offers us. I am not ashamed to admit I have spoken in tongues, I have been slain in the Spirit, and I choose to worship in freedom for the rest my life. I choose to let God be God and will not dictate what is of Him and what is not anymore. God is God and can do anything He wants, it’s time I get on board with that.
