Sometimes I have very vivid and real dreams, and I never dream of evil spirits nor satan. As I prepared for the World Race, I had two dreams that I know God is using to help me through the ups and downs of the anxiety and stress I felt leading up to training camp and the World Race.
One particular dream was so clear that when I woke up I knew I had seen satan. I was in a room that there was no light only darkness. The ceiling, walls, and floor were made of dark rounded stones with moss in between. I was standing facing satan, but I couldn’t make out his face, but it was satan. Satan began taking each stone, row by row, out from under me. As he got to the row I was standing on and began to take them away, I started screaming. My arms and legs were sticking straight out in front of me, and I felt the presence of a man next to me. When I stopped screaming I realized that we were sitting in cement chair suspended above the bottomless room and we were not going anywhere.
Fortunately, God is a God of humor and even in the intense moment of the situation, God changed me into Rachel McAdams–because she is better at reacting to scary situations than I am. She is an actress, you know. I needed to be reminded that Jesus is always right next to me, and that no matter what tricks satan uses we can find rest even in the midst of anxiety.
I have been reminded of this dream as I walk around this place and see the same stones. Training camp has been amazing, exhausting, emotionally and physically draining. We have had some intense worship and things to process that have been pretty overwhelming. I have met some amazing people and have an amazing bunkmate. We have laughed and been challenged not to hold tightly to what we expect or want. I have felt things being pulled away from me and not wanting to let them go. The other night we sang the words, where you go I will go, what you say I will say, what you pray I will pray. I sang these words and there is power there. Satan has been trying to shake my foundation here and make me uncomfortable, but God is doing mighty things in my team, and I am excited to serve with them.
