Friday, January 16, 2015
Several weeks after The World Race, I went to Project Searchlight (PSL) to reunite with my squad and learn how to navigate through this new season. The last night was an all-night worship. My squadmates prayed for healing in my ears. Later, Liz said, “I got a vision of you stomping on your hearing aid. I don’t know if that was tonight, next month, or a year from now, but you were healed and didn’t need it anymore.”
What!? My hearing aid was basically a part of my body. This would be tantamount to cutting off an appendage! Hearing aids are fragile pieces of equipment; just dropping it on the ground could break it! I started crying. I understood why God wanted me to do this. He was giving me the opportunity to put my faith into action; to show that I believed what I said I believed. I didn’t have enough faith to do THAT, though! I knew that doing it would demonstrate my faith in God. In not doing so, my trust would be displayed elsewhere.
God began to paint a clear picture through His promise to give Abraham and Sarah a child (Genesis 15:4). Sarah trusted God halfheartedly, but God still gave her Ishmael (Genesis 16). So, I thought, “God, can you just do half the work for me? Just heal my right ear and then I will smash my hearing aid for my left ear.” I was being lukewarm and trusting halfheartedly. God doesn’t want us to be lukewarm (Revelation 3:15-16)! I thought of how God asked Abraham to sacrifice Isaac and how tiny this was in comparison (Genesis 22). My Isaac was my hearing aid! Has God ever asked you to demonstrate your faith?
I realized God would be glorified through obedience. With that obedience comes His transformational power.
In that moment, I knew tonight was the night. So before I lost my courage, I pushed through the crowd praying for me. I found my shoe, grabbed my hearing aid from the table and put it on the ground. I passionately slammed my shoe down on it as hard as I could and it went flying out of sight.
Read tomorrow’s blog to find out what happened next.
