Some thoughts on working at the Brain Paralysis Hospital.
We have been serving in a brain paralysis hospital with about 100 severely disabled patients there.
This is does not necessarily “shock me” or “catch me off guard”… I have experienced several things like this before… working in many orphanages, nursing homes, shelters for the homeless, shelters for the abused, and poorly conditioned (and extremely understaffed) hospitals. The diseases, human deformity, near death persons have all been exposed to me before…but, even as I type this… I realize that all the preparation still can not reduce the overwhelming anxiety and hurt you feel for these people. Today, a 28 year old woman peed in her folding chair seat, which then went all over the floor….and then, another patient proceeded to sit directly in it before anyone could stop her! WHY. Why God. Why… what purpose, what life is this? Why did you create people like this? What kind of “life abundantly” is this, Jesus?
……I could come up with some awesome Biblical answer or reason for this… or say something “churchy“ like, “God has a reason for everything”…but I feel like that is just a copout to really searching for truth and answers and I am just simply not ok with accepting that anymore. *Which, I KNOW based on church knowledge that God does have a reason for everything…but, until I know God’s character… I do not feel like I can assign what He has or does just yet. So, “God has a reason for everything” is just too shallow for me…I am still asking questions myself. So, maybe…that is what this month is for: Asking God the hard questions….This is where I am at….when I serve at the hospital, I am serving/working tangibly with my hands and have some sort of outcome of it But, I feel like, until my heart is in the right or proper motive, I could build a million houses and it would not mean a darn thing.
Some thoughts on working at the Brain Paralysis Hospital.
We have been serving in a brain paralysis hospital with about 100 severely disabled patients there. This is does not necessarily “shock me” or “catch me off guard”… I have experienced several things like this before… working in many orphanages, nursing homes, shelters for the homeless, shelters for the abused, and poorly conditioned (and extremely understaffed) hospitals. The diseases, human deformity, near death persons have all been exposed to me before…but, even as I type this… I realize that all the preparation still can not reduce the overwhelming anxiety and hurt you feel for these people.
Today, a 28 year old woman peed in her folding chair seat, which then went all over the floor….and then, another patient proceeded to sit directly in it before anyone could stop her! WHY. Why God. Why… what purpose, what life is this? Why did you create people like this? What kind of “life abundantly” is this, Jesus?
Today, a 28 year old woman peed in her folding chair seat, which then went all over the floor….and then, another patient proceeded to sit directly in it before anyone could stop her! WHY. Why God. Why… what purpose, what life is this? Why did you create people like this? What kind of “life abundantly” is this, Jesus?
……I could come up with some awesome Biblical answer or reason for this… or say something “churchy“ like, “God has a reason for everything”…but I feel like that is just a copout to really searching for truth and answers and I am just simply not ok with accepting that anymore. *Which, I KNOW based on church knowledge that God does have a reason for everything…but, until I know God’s character… I do not feel like I can assign what He has or does just yet. So, “God has a reason for everything” is just too shallow for me…I am still asking questions myself.
So, maybe…that is what this month is for: Asking God the hard questions….This is where I am at….when I serve at the hospital, I am serving/working tangibly with my hands and have some sort of outcome of it But, I feel like, until my heart is in the right or proper motive, I could build a million houses and it would not mean a darn thing.
