GUYS! THE TIME IS SHORTLY COMING!
I have been talking about this moment for far too long. With the thought of leaving home in less than a week, I am a wreck. My feelings are all over the place, literally. One moment I am crying my eyes out of thinking of all the goodbyes that I have to do and the next moment I am cracking jokes with someone.
I am not joking when I say that this has been the hardest season. I have had to wait for 6 weeks after this amazing training camp to leave for this adventure that I have been talking about since last fall. I have had such sweet moments with so many people and at the same time, they have been really hard moments.
As August 3rd approaches, I am trying my best to be present here in the now but it can be difficult at times. I am trying to keep a joyful mindset when I am around people and just cry to myself on the side, but that is not living in community with your loved ones. You have to show them the good and bad times you are having because they are probably going through these emotions as well.
Not only are my emotions all over the place, so are my thoughts about what is going to happen while I am gone. If you did not know, my twin just got engaged. (Heck yes!!!) I will miss being fully present there for her while she plans for this next year. There are many other situations I could think of when I think about leaving, but what does that help? I cannot be on the Race and be thinking of what I am missing back at home. I am going to miss things but I am going to gain a ton more amazing moments on the Race. I will do my best with keeping in touch with people back home, so bare with me please.
BUT…
There has been light throughout all of the crazy times. The Lord has really shown me that I am not alone in this at all. My squad peeps are feeling just like I am feeling. We are upset one moment and ready to go another moment. Because I am weak in this season, the Lord can be my stronghold throughout all of it. I could not be doing this without Him encouraging me on and constantly telling me, “Amy, stop questioning! You are ready to go and I will be with you the WHOLE time!” Okay, okay I will try and stop questioning and just go already!
I would also not be doing ANY of this without your support, encouragement and love. I know that I have an incredible crew back at home cheering me on throughout this upcoming season. When all I want to do is go home this next year, all I have to do is think about my cheering section I have here in America. I truly cannot thank you enough!
Love ya and see ya soon (well 11 months!)
“And then I heard the voice of the Master: ‘Whom shall I send? Who will go for us?’ I spoke up, ‘I’ll go. Send me!”’ Isaiah 6:8
