I will be honest and say that ever since I got accepted into the World Race it has been a constant emotional rollercoaster. One day I am so excited for this new journey and the next I am sad about leaving people for 11 months. Another day, I am confused at what I am doing or mad that I am not ahead of the game like my other teammates seem to be. It is a constant question each morning as to what I will be feeling that day.
There have been days where it would be easier just to not do the World Race, go get my Masters degree, not have to say goodbye to everyone and keep living the life I have known for 21 years. It would be easier to sleep in my own bed rather than a sleeping bag and tent for months on end. It would be easier to stick with the friends that I have instead of starting fresh with many new ones. Yes, it would be easier to stay, but as believers, we are not called to be comfortable in our lives.
We are called to be challenged and uncomfortable because those are the times we grow in our relationship with Jesus the most. If I stay back and not answer the call to go be pushed, challenged, and broken for Him, I can see myself playing the role of being the perfect Christian like I have before. Yes, I could do that but I heard my calling to go do mission work in 11 countries in 11 months and I am doing it.
Every time I question whether or not I am supposed to go or not, I ask the Lord if this is really what I am supposed to be doing. When I ask Him, all I can hear is a shouting “YES!” without any hesitation. I have wrestled with the Lord about this race various times and every time there is a verse that I have always seemed to refer to in those questioning times. It says:
“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” -Exodus 14:14
When I read that verse, I can hear it telling me to stop fighting this call and be still. He has me, there is no need to keeping fighting Him because of the call He has given me. All I need to be is silent, He is fighting for me and YOU! Are you constantly fighting His call? If so, stop fighting and be silent, be still. He has you and has a great plan for you. Just be still.
I am so very excited about this adventure coming up and I could not be happier. Yes, there are days when I may be sad, mad, confused or any other emotion, but I know the Lord has me and has a good plan for me.
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