I’m sitting at my kitchen table, 2+ weeks in to being home, and realizing that I haven’t even posted a blog about Cambodia yet… 😛 Yes, I plan to post an update on what we were up to during the last 3 countries of our trip, and yes, I plan on doing it soon! 🙂
But, today something else is on my heart that I hope will encourage you…
Since I came home from the race, things have been…good. It’s been so good to spend time with friends and family. So good to enjoy the small things that I hope to never take for granted again. So good to take a spontaneous road trip to see my sister, and cook whatever food I want, and play with my dogs….All of it has been so “good”.
But, there has been something missing. I can feel it. Some kind of empty space that whispers/shouts to be filled, and when it remains empty the best of days are pulled down in to the “good” category.
You see, it was easier for me to be radical about my connection with the Lord when I was living in such an unusual, uncomfortable way. Sleep deprived, stinky, willing to do literally anything for the sake of love and helping others see Christ…. You have to stay linked to the Spirit if you plan to survive the Race.
But what about when your at home “resting”.
And, you don’t have a job yet.
And, it seems that there is no great need to seek the Lord for.
And, every day slowly starts to blur into the next, until your life just becomes “good”.
“I’m fine…” we say casually. Ugh!! No! We are not fine! We are filled with the capacity and potential for more! More dreams, more passions, MORE PURPOSE!
That’s where I found myself in my honest moments since coming home… “Where is my purpose?”
So, I got sick of it…I got sick of the mediocrity, and decided to sit down with the Lord. To tell Him how I feel about Him, about me, and about life.
And, do you want to know what He reminded me of??? What love is. Mostly that love always trusts. Now if love always trusts, and God perfectly loves me…then that means that He completely trusts me. The Creator of the universe trusts me!? What the heck, I constantly screw up….
He risks everything on me.
But, right there is where I found my purpose. Abba Father trusts me with His loved ones, His plan, with responsibility. And, with the potential that comes along with that, I don’t have time to sit around and wonder what I’m good for! I don’t have time to slip into a meaningless routine! I trust that God is taking me somewhere, and no matter how much I can’t see it now, sitting around and doubting myself (and in doing so, doubting my God) only hinders the process.
So, here is your encouragement. He trusts you too, because He is crazy in love with you.
Every singly one of your days has purpose, and by seeking the Lord, I believe that you will find that purpose.
Don’t let the LIE of mediocrity hold you back.
You are not mediocre, not with the Daddy that you have!
He’s got you in mind and in heart, Beloved. He’s working things out for your good as you read this. I pray that this is a shot of life to your spirit, and a gust of wind to your lungs.
Endurance, Peace, Patience, Joy, and Perseverance to you. 🙂
