Let's get naked……..Metaphorically of course haha .. I knew this title would grab your attention and find it completely fitting for the blog I am about to write.. If this title made you uncomfortable I am gonna warn you that you will feel even more uncomfortable after you read this. If you are still with me I am excited and a bit nervous to share all of me with you. I read one of Stephanie mays blog if you have not read her blogs I advise that you do so ASAP she is a phenomenal writer but more than that a phenomenal woman of God. I have never met the gal but God graciously put her in my path . She wrote a blog about Adam and Eve and how they were completely exposed and naked to one another and felt no shame until they ate from . The Tree of life. As I began to let this sink in I begin to think of all the imperfections I have and the ways that clothes cover them , being naked exposes all us. God has called me to get naked in a metaphorical sense , to expose the truth about my past and current struggles in life. As I start to strip off each item, I anxiously and nervously anticipate the response of the audience. As I talk this out with my mom and sister in law I am reminded that I am to live for an audience of one, my king, my beloved, my Savior, my best friend, My father. As this is going to shock many of you that have just met me, or those who have never gotten the chance to hear my full testimony , others may be disappointed by my previous actions, and many upset of the things I am exposing, I pray that those of you that find these emotions may know that that is not my intentions and I pray that your heart may be open to reading each part and know that this is done out of a heart of love andobedience . I also pray that you may be freed and desire todo the same thing. I thank you for reading this blog and ask you to take care of the things you are about to read for this is a very vulnerable blog.
And the stripping begins , it's time to expose the ugly the past and the hidden, time to let the darkness out so God can shine his light and truth. I like to present myself as perfect and. Blameless which is true , but only by Gods grace unfortunately i act as if i am perfected on my own. The truth is God has allowed his grace to truly do those things, the way God is most glorified is when i humble myself and boast most about my weaknesses , where then His strengths are revealed and radiantly shine in my life.I have been doing a lot of thinking this past year about when God takes me home. The many questions that flood my mind are how people will perceive me when i am gone ? what they remember of me ? Will i even be remembered? Have I made an impact in this world at all? As these questions begin to overwhelm me and fill me with fear and guilt , God reminds me that He is the only thing that lasts in this life , that his holy and pleasing name and love will never die and will always resignatre the ends of the earth . Honestly at first I was trying to think about all the things I had done and hoped that people would flatter me and boast of the person I was. Realizing how selfish and how quickly that would die God renewed my thinking. Now more than ever I want to boast of true ways he has renewed me and changed me and continually is working in me. That although I am selfish he is able to show his selflessness through me, although I lie he is able to bring Truth and restoration, though I am filled with pride he is able to display his humility and perfect and pure love this is what I hope people will remember about me when i die that I was used as a vessel for God that the only name I proclaimed was his as I am selfish but I pray that people will be able to see his selflessness through me, truth is I am impatient but I pray that people will see his patience shown through my life. Truth is I am prideful but that he will renew me to show his humility . Truth is that me in myself am nothing am no good but God had gracefully chosen me dirty and unworthy but has called me to a spotless and pure life,to do his work and show his characterics through me and my weaknesses .
