Haven't blogged in a while because quite honestly, I didn't know how to verbally process thoughts or feelings. But today it finally hit me… This is REAL and I am doing this! Training Camp is in less than 3 weeks and inside I am FREAKING OUT!!! I know this is exactly where the Lord wants me, everything He has orchestrated since making the commitment has been confirmed over and over again. I don't know why I doubt that if He put me here HE will get me through it. Fear and anxiety have crept in along with many insecurities; Will I fit in? Will I able to keep up physically? How about mentally or even spiritually?
That's when I realized it's not about me. HE WILL. A scripture I've been meditating on lately is Isaiah 41:10 "Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand." Earlier this evening a trusted mentor and father figure noted that anxiety and fear are natural human emotions. Even the disciples were anxious in the storm when they woke up Jesus.
But before they even got into the boat Jesus said they WERE going to the other side– not they might get to the other side. A dear friend and coworker also reminded me that HE is my strength and will not lead me to something that He will not bring me through. I know that this is the path and plan for my life right now. There will be anxious times, but He has given me a direction and location to go as well, 11 of them to be exact! All I need to do is sit back in the boat (relax a little 😉 and enjoy this crazy journey!
Let the Waters Rise by Mikeschair http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nyfIR8kIZX0 has been an encouragement as well 🙂
