“The cross before me, the world behind me
The cross before me, the world behind me
The cross before me, the world behind me
No turning back, no turning back
Though none go with me, still I will follow
Though none go with me, still I will follow
Though none go with me, still I will follow
No turning back, no turning back”
This little hymn came to me the morning after receiving an email declining my request for an extension of my Leave of Absence due March 31st. About a month ago I had made up my mind that I wasn’t ready to go back into the classroom, there was still more work for me to do. (What exactly, I’m not really sure.) But at the very least, I could spend another year figuring it out. Then the Lord shut that door in one single sentence.
“Please let us know whether you will be returning or resigning for the 2014-2015 school year.”
I hadn’t anticipated that. I mean, I had already given 10 years of my life doing what I thought I’d be doing the rest of my life. But for the past few years, I haven’t felt anything like I did at the beginning of my career. And now I only have 3 days to decide if I’m never going back.
In that instant, in my heart I already knew the answer, but my flesh was completely terrified! I had so many questions… How would I support myself? Would I be able to pay my mortgage? What about savings and retirement?
But for me, that’s what this year was all about… leaving the world and all its ideals behind, and just following Jesus. And I tell you what, not one day I would trade!
I’d like to say that resigning from my career in education was the hardest thing I’ve had to do. I’m not going to lie, choosing to following the Lord’s leading has induced some anxiety. But mostly, I excited. Excited for the future, what’s to come, seeing how He’ll continue to provide, lead, and guide my steps. And although I have no idea what is next, I’m keeping the cross before me, and there’s no turning back.
For now, I’m headed into month 8 of the Race. We will be serving in Nepal. For those who have supported me up until this point financially and with prayer, thank you! I continue to ask for your love and support through this next season.
Love you all soooo much!!!
amie b 
