Drum roll please…..
I’m coming home!!!! Woooooo!
Back to the good ol’ USA. Back to relative physical comfort. Air conditioning (not sure if I’m actually excited about that one). A room to myself. A car that I can drive wherever I want, whenever I want, and I don’t have to tell anyone or check with 5-8 other team members. ALL THE FOOD I MISS SO MUCH (chipotle, Chik-Fil-A, Olive Garden, Texas Roadhouse, Outback, homemade cookies, a kitchen where I can cook whatever I find on pinterest, my spaghetti sause… I could go on… Omg my mouth is watering).
I’m so excited. At peace. Ready.
It’s been so interesting to see how my perspective on going home has shifted over the months. I’ve gone through so many phases. And this is the first time I’ve felt this way.
Pre-launch: I can’t wait to leave
The day of launch: what have I done? I can’t do this!
First 4 months: WOOO, I’M NEVER GOING BACK!
Christmas: wow, I miss home today.
Next 4 months: I miss some things but hey, Africa and Asia are pretty rad. Also, a few moments of “get. Me. Out. Of. Here.”
PVT In India: Worlds colliding, I’ve changed, they’ve changed- idk how this is going to go!
Thailand: I have less than ZERO peace about going home… Ima go home for 0.2 seconds and then launch again or move somewhere.
Month 10-present: I would be 100% content continuing on this journey but I’m also 100% at peace with going home.
The time has come. It’s all ending and I’m ready.
Ready to come home and continue to share what I’ve learned with those who want to hear. To live life back in the states for a while. To reconnect and pursue what’s next.
I’m ready but I don’t need to come home.
I’m not running from anything.
I’ve chosen home, at least for now.
And that’s a gift.
The Lord gave me a few options for this season. And He made them eerily equal. I would weigh the options and could argue for, or against any one of them. And I still had to choose.
Ultimately, looking back it makes me smile. I chose and now I get to walk forward knowing that I chose what I wanted and have His blessing.
It’s like in relationships. It’s cool to be needed sometimes but that TOTALLY takes away from just being wanted.
I don’t need home. And home doesn’t need me!
That makes the choice so much sweeter, doesn’t it?
I’ve chosen home, I want it and I am at peace.
I’ll be headed stateside tonight and then back in Ohio the beginning of July!
See ya’ll soon.
Dad, go ahead and celebrate… your prayers have been answered, for now 😉
