Processing Please hold….
Processing is a word I see myself using more often these days then any other word.
Processing my thoughts ,my feelings, people’s words and even the Lords.
We process people’s actions and decisions all the time.
We process if what they say makes us happy or sad or even hurt.
Machines process , food is processed, everything goes through a process.
Okay so maybe that’s a bad example but..
On Monday of the week of training camp ,I got sick and went to the doctor twice he pretty much told me that I couldn’t sleep outside and I was contagious tell my temperature broke which could of been a day or could of been two or more he didn’t know. He told me I could get worse and didn’t advise me to go but told me it was up to me.
Monday and Tuesday of that week I talked with my Moblizer and I decided that I wasn’t sure if I would feel better by Wednesday to fly to Georgia for camp so I told her I would have to defer.
She talked with me for awhile saying I could come sick and it was really up to me. She talked about how people get sick before the race and how the devil tries to attack.
I processed what she said..
I prayed and prayed and prayed with so many other Christians but kept hearing in my head you still need to process .Be still my daughter.
I didn’t want to take the chance of others getting sick and didn’t think my body could take it.
Also I know that God’s Timing is NEVER wrong.
That was truly a heartbreaking experience.
Did you process all that ?
Wait you didn’t go to training camp? What does that mean as far as world race?
Hold on I’m processing
Well that does mean I have deferred once again to a later route. I will now be leaving August of 2018.
This past few weeks have been the FARTHEST from easy.
Processing that the family I thought was my family for the next 11 months are now just friends I’m supporting from the side. They are now home from training camp and seeing what they have learned and how much they have growed has made me cry like no other but at the same time I have sit and thought those are my friends and God is doing might things and I’m so happy I know them, Im so proud of them. Some made decisions to get baptized and that was a proud moment being their friend. I have learned that it’s okay to cheer from the sideline.
We never really think about how much we process.
This is your 2nd time to switch and Your 3rd team do you think you will even go this time ?
I know God has called me to do this because I have this desire this calling to serve the least of these. I have this passion for overseas missions and I have the love for people who are hurting .I have learned a lot from deferring but one of the greatest lessons I have learned that im not a failure. I haven’t failed and that God is still processing me so that I can be ready in August. I have the passion to see the world and it’s culture.
I dream of the day I get to wake up in a foreign country telling others the good news and most of all the Lord has called me and I’m saying YES !
So how am I feeling?
It’s been hard I’m not gone lie.
People say man I couldn’t wait tell August.
People speak so much negative in my life.
But you see Gods calling is never wrong , Gods timing is never wrong. I filled my purpose with the other routes and I learned a lot but know that missions is what I’m suppose to do .I can see now why God has called me to keep processing and wait and I hope to share more of that with you soon.
What Can I do to help?
PRAYER!
I ask you to pray for me and my squads. I ask you to prayer for guidance and to keep listening to the Lord.I ask you to keep praying for health,and to pray for my new squad as the get ready for this new adventure . Prayer is a powerful tool.
Also I’m still fundraising and now that I have more months to fundraise my Goal is to be fully funded before I leave . Will you partner with me ?
Will you donate $5 a month ?
Will you pray for me ?
Will you say Amber lets do this ?
I also havnt got all of my equpiment and clothes I wanna take on the race so if you would like to partner with me and help me you can email me at [email protected] and I’ll be able to send you my wish list and info.
Also I’m currently selling vinyl stickers that are great stocking stuffers you can see that on my Facebook page or contact me on here Or through email.
Thank you for your continue support.
What am i going to do now tell August ? What are my plans ??
Im still processing. I’m looking for a full time job and wanting to get more involved with my church and the children.(I have recently moved back to oklahoma). I love children probably more than I love pumpkin and If you know me that is a whole lot of love. I will finish up most of my school. (my parents are happy) I have lots of things that I feel deep in my heart God is calling me to do while I process and get ready for the race.
I’m looking forward to getting to go in August and being with my new family. I’m learning there names and all about them and they are some Great humans let me tell you.
I do wanna say a few more things before I end this blog.
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who has played a part in this journey its been hard at times but thanks for believeing in me and thanks for processing with me. Thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder when I needed it and thanks for supporting me in so many ways and I ask you to continue to pray for me and to follow on this journey.
Thank you D-squad for constantly stil supporting me and encourageing me.
Thank you to all my Moblizers and Megan for praying with me and encouraging me. The World race community and people who work for the world race are AMAZING Humans.
Thank you to all the people who have defered like me and has prayed with me and listen to my thoughts and concerns.
Thank You for reading this and being part of this journey one way or another!
As Always if you have a pray request or would like more info about my trip please comment below so I can get with you.
Love, Missionary Amber
