Goldilocks
So many things come to my mind when I think of the story of Goldilocks and when I think about The Race. I was talking to a couple of my squad mates last week about what we want to do after the race and what we’re hoping to get out of it, and I don’t have an answer to either of those. I have no idea what to expect. I don’t know exactly what we will be doing, who we will meet, where we’re going in each country. There are so many unknowns.
When Goldilocks came across the house of the 3 bears she didn’t know what to expect either, but she walked right in anyways. She saw the food and tried each one, dipping her spoon into each bowl and trying it to see which one was best. One was too hot, one was too cold, but one, one of them, was just right. That’s what I think about when I think of what I will experience on this journey. We are going to be doing so many things, some that I’ve done a million times before, but others that will be completely new. Some things I will love, others will be ok but not my favorite, and others I will absolutely hate. Like Goldilocks, I’ll be testing out new things, I’ll be dipping my hand into different ways of ministry, different ways of living and of life, trying to find what fits me best.
I want to see God work in my life, in me and through me. I want to be stretched and tested and I want to see what is out there. There will be times when what I go through won’t be what I had hoped for, times where I will struggle or disagree with what we may be doing, but in each of these I hope that God will show himself more to me and draw me closer to him. I want to experience new cultures and ways of helping others and I hope to find something that really speaks to me, that sparks a passion in my life. I am Goldilocks in this story, and this journey is the house of the 3 bears, something new and unknown for me to experience. I know that each new opportunity, ministry, person I meet, and country I work in will impact me for the rest of my life and I know that each one will teach me something. I pray that with each new experience I will get closer to finding myself and my passions, and that I will figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. That I will be shown a ministry or maybe even two that I want to help with, or that show me something that I can do somewhere else in the world. I have no idea what I will go through, and as nervous as I am about some of it, I’m more excited to see who I will be once I come home because of everything that I experience. I’m excited to see what God is wanting to show me while I’m on this journey. I know that I won’t be the same person that I am now. A year can change a person, but a year spent helping others, dedicating that year to them, I can’t even imagine how my view of life and of people and of myself will be changed.
I am ready to be Goldilocks!
