I am sitting in the back of my friends Kia with 7 minutes left until we arrive at our place for the night. We have been traveling for 16 hours.
Tomorrow is Day 1 of Training Camp. AH!! I don’t think I have processed what is happening yet, so my emotions have been all over the place. Spiritual warfare has been so real and apparent it is CRAZY. The enemy has been throwing everything he has at me for the past week, and up until 30 minutes ago I was believing every thought of inadequacy.
One of the things we have to do at training camp is partake in a hike. We have to walk 2.2 miles with all of our gear (40 pounds worth), in 38 minutes. I have tried so many times, but I can’t make it. I am 45 seconds short of making it.
A few weeks ago the Lord spoke to me through my favorite verse Isaiah 40:31. I have read this verse a billion times, but the Lord can still find ways for something familar to feel brand new. Boy did He.
One day before I left to train with my pack, I wrote Isa. 40:31 on the pocket of my pack. I wasn‘t particularly feeling great, and DEFINETLY didn‘t want to practice walking with my pack, so I asked God to change my heart and help me get through it. I started the walk and BOOM took off like a bullet from a gun. God was walking for me 100%. I usually walk a 18 minute pace. God walking for me, I was walking a 14 minute pace. My legs don’t go that fast on their own! I was shocked and so encouraged that maybe I could actually do this hike.
Then satan starting attacking hard this week, and I fell for it. I don’t want to let anyone down. Supporters, friends, family, squad, God. Anyone. If I don’t make this hike I feel like I would let everyone down.
Today, driving to Georgia on the back of an 18 wheeler was the verse, Isaiah 40:31. If that wasn’t enough of a reminder, I open up Facebook to see that on this day in 2012, my status was Isaiah 40:31.
I really just feel like God is telling me everything is going to be alright. Even if for some reason I don’t make this hike, I will be okay. God has me and He will take care of me.
I can actually say I am excited for training camp now. Praise the Lord! Get behind me Satan, not anymore.
Training camp is going to be so challenging, but SO GOOD!
”But those who trust in the Lord will find NEW STRENGTH, they will soar high on wings like eagles, THEY WILL WALK AND NOT GROW WEARY, they will run and not faint.”
Isaiah 40:31
until after training camp,
A
