Good question. I’ve been on World Race America for almost 4 months and I am still trying to figure that out.
WR America is so different from the race and so undefined that it has been hard to explain it. So the best way to answer the question right now is this…I am living in a traveling community of people who are trying to follow the Holy Spirit and accomplish the mission that the Lord has set on our hearts, sometimes that is something the Lord calls our whole group into, sometimes it’s just me.
Writing and creating videos has been difficult because the first 3 months I felt like I was drowning. Call it reentry or just plain exhaustion, I don’t know, but I can barely remember anything that happen over the last 3 months, let alone form a cohesive thought and write about it.
Towards the end of March the Lord put it on my heart to stay home for a week as my team went to Louisiana. This is when things changed for me. I finally got some secure footing and my head was able to come above water.
That week at home was tough and exactly what I needed. I went to a conference with my mom and the Lord reached me in a place where I thought I was unreachable. The Bible says that He goes after the 99 and that there is no place that escapes His presence, but if I am honest, I doubt that a lot. Especially when I am in that place that seems the furthest from God. I am happy to report that I have see the light and I am was so wrong.
He reached me. In the most EXTRA way that could have been scripted from a movie. I went up for prayer and the worship leader called me out of the crowd, knew my name, and then proceeded to go ham and speak prophetically over my life, and I have been waiting for this prophecy to be spoken for 24 years. She confirmed things that I knew in my heart since I was a kid but have been waiting for the Lord to confirm it and He finally has. It all came in a moment when I thought I was unreachable.
Since then it feels like a anchor has been dropped and no matter how far I feel like I drift or how rough the waves get, I have a promise that the enemy can’t come up against. This promise is secure and steadfast.
I am a high feeler, which is something I couldn’t admit until this year. This is a blessing, but it comes with a lot of emotions that you have to sort through to find the truth. Emotions fade, and for awhile I thought that when the emotion faded, so did the Lord. So did a promise. If I was in a spiritual high I was close to the Lord, when the feeling left, I thought the Lord left with it.
Knowing now that this is how I operate. I asked the Lord to take away the spiritual high I felt after He spoke to me that night. I wanted to work past the emotions and hold on to the promise in truth, not in feelings. The feelings stayed for a few days, then all of a sudden one night at dinner it was gone in an instant. For a second fear sat in, but truth quickly took over. The promise is still there, just the feeling is gone.
That is what the Lord has been teaching for the last few weeks. He is there, even if I don’t feel him. I haven’t felt Him in weeks, but somehow I feel peace. I know the Lord is taking me through this to make me unstoppable. Think about it, if I know His goodness, His faithfulness, and His promises still stand even when feelings aren’t there, the enemy can’t touch me. Trails will come, but I won’t be shaken because I will know Truth!That is so exciting to me.
God is doing so much in America. I have been so encouraged by the people we have met already this year.
Thank you for supporting me. This year has already taught me so much and I know I have only scratched the surface.
We are in Month 4 and we have been to over 20 cities in 7 states. We are currently in Texas and are gonna start heading out West in the next week!
