These past few months have been nothing but growth, and thank the Lord for that! When I got accepted to the World Race in Jan 2017, I prayed and asked God to bring up situations or circumstances to help me grow. I also prayed that God would make me fearless, so I could walk in the spirit and not worry about what my flesh was worried about.
I have a tendency to assume the worst in situations. Thinking the worst in a situation could hinder me from stepping out on some of the things God has for me next year on the World Race. So I have been praying away every fear and anxiety, and holding every thought captive and trusting God. I want to step out, I want to do the things I wouldn’t normally do. I want to grow so much spiritually that when I get home my parents, sister, family, and friends don’t even recognize me! I don’t want anxiety to get in the way of the things that God has for me and my squad next year.
Let me just say be careful what you pray for because the Lord definitely allowed some situations to come up to help me grow. I have had to work through a lot of anxiety with the Lord, but I know without a doubt it is because he is making me fearless.
I am under construction, being crafted and molded into a fearless, bold, Godly woman. It is hard, but it is so beautiful. I asked for this, and I see God working in me and I wouldn’t change anything for the world.
I don’t know about you, but when I get a call from God to do something, I think “How in the world am I supposed to do that?” Well you can’t, at least not alone. God doesn’t give you things that you alone can handle, if He did then we would never have to rely on Him. Saying yes to the small things that God has called you to do, first makes you obedient, but then it makes it SO much easier to do it again.
These past few months I have been really diving in the Word. I started off by just wanting to know who Jesus says I am. I have been doing Bible plans and every time God says something about me, I write it down. Now, I feel like the Lord has told me to step it up, and now I am challenging myself to finish the Bible in 90 days or sooner. From Genesis to Revelation, which is about 20 chapters a day. It is the most time consuming thing, but the BEST thing. Spending hours a day in the word has made me truly fall in love with Jesus.
Jesus DIED for us guys! More than that, he was beaten and tortured and THEN died in the most painful way possible, for US! JUST FOR US! We are so completely undeserving. When you truly grasp this realization, you can see just how much Jesus loves you.
This little passage in Romans 8 is my favorite in the whole Bible. Please pray and ask God to allow this to hit you because, it is so beautiful. The love that God has for us is so BEAUTIFUL!
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified, those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one, Christ Jesus who died–MORE THAN THAT, WHO WAS RAISED TO LIFE–is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: ‘For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.’ NO, in all these things WE ARE MORE THAN CONQUERORS through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Romans 8:28-39 NIV
In conclusion, I am so in love with Jesus. I am being sanctified and I CANNOT WAIT to pour out this love that I feel onto others from all around the world.
“I have found the one who my soul loves” Song of Solomon 3:4
with LOVE,
-A
