So I’m sitting here and I’m thinking about the race. I’m a little discouraged… Ok a lot discourage. I’m trying everything I can think of to raise my support and I feel like I keep hitting brick walls. I’ve called church after church over the past few days to ask about speaking about the trip and I’ve got 5 solid answers of no and not a whole lot more of anything. I start stressing because I have raised less than $4000 and still need SO much stuff and I don’t have enough money to buy it all. My circle of friends aka most of my sanity support is spread out from Wisconsin to Africa to North Carolina to mid Florida but no one less than an hour and a half away and I feel alone and kinda hopeless. Then I open my jesus calling book and read this…
And I’m reminded that the future holds secret things and that secret things are of the Lord, not for me to know. That worry is sin and rebellion toward God. That the Lord promises to walk me step by step and that all of His promises are true. Then the Lord tells me to find and read Matthew 6:25-34 that says this, ““Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” A few things stuck out. First, the Bible sees one who worries about anything really as one of little faith. Second that pagans worry and run after these things. And third that our Heavenly Father KNOWS WE NEED THEM!!! I decided I don’t want to be one of little faith, I want to have faith that holds me up upon the water; that moves a mountain; that will get me on the race without living in doubt and worry. Also I realized that I don’t have to be like the rest of the world living in worry and doubt because the Lord knows what I need and promises time and time again to provide for those needs. So from now on, regardless of: what does or doesn’t happen I will live believing in my calling and the One who gave it to me.
