Read this little dilly from Beth Moore this month and it was a 'that's so Raven moment' indeed—
"The middle of any challenging journey can be the most critical point. Many of us may not be where we were, but we're not yet where we want to go. Perhaps the terrible bondage of Egypt is behind us, but the land of promise seems remote. The longer we wander in the wilderness between Egypt and the Promised Land, the greater the chance we'll return to captivity. The pull of familiar comforts and habits can feel overpowering, particularly against the uncertainty of Canaan's unknowns. But as we persevere, God is faithful to continually give us the extra push of motivation to press on."
I feel like I'm totally in this land between right now. Before I left for the race I went through my Egypt in lots o' ways- senior year of USI= a kick in the head, but very necessary for healing and things I needed to walk through. So now, on the race, I'm in this middle limbo-esque place…not to mention that we're in month six almost… but this place is uncomfortable knowing that I'm not where I was, but I know I'm not where I'm supposed to be either. I've been slipping back into familiar ways of thinking, compulsions, and habits that I haven't dealt with in a while, which is a bummer.
But, I'm thankful for this time now in Nairobi. A time to refill and refocus here. I know breakthrough is coming. Still so thankful to be in Africa- Kenya is my favorite month on the race so far…praying that I don't give up trying to persevere. Thankful to be in the middle of this journey to learn, and still amazed that I get the opportunity to be on the race with the people I'm with, experiencing the things I get to experience.
I know the land between= suckville, but I feel like if you're not in it now, you will be eventually. I know the Promised Land is there. It's the learning and growth that comes from attempting to be disciplined despite your feelings and learning to persevere that makes the journey worthwhile.
Random cool things
– Got to go to Tanzania because we were living in a border town this month-pretty cool just to say we went.
– Went to Lake Victoria, saw a hippo…yes please
– Managed to find a copy of Mrs. Doubtfire in a pirated African video shop- might have made my race.
-Going to Rwanda next, by the way…our route got switched, I'm ok with it and excited to test out my stellar USI education to see what years of French classes in southern Indiana got me.
