Everyday this decision to “go” gets more real. I sell another piece of furniture. Financial support starts to come in. I get introduced to new squadmates . The news gets shared at work. Gear starts being purchased. And despite all of these changes and building excitement and abundant blessings, I can’t help but wonder if I am in over my head?
I don’t have the finances. I have never slept in a tent for more than 10 days at a time. I am not a worship leader and I don’t know as much scripture by heart as I would like. Each of these shortcomings have the capability of snowballing into worries that could stop me from obeying God’s call but I won’t let them because I know that God does not call the equipped but He equips the called.
I may feel inadequate and unprepared, just as David appeared, but I haven’t forgotten that God is on our side. When David faced Goliath, he put all of his trust in God. He learned to walk in the paths of righteousness rather than to lean on his own strength, wisdom, or talent. During this season of preparation for full time ministry, I am also learning to lean less on myself and more on God.
Only He knows the depth of my heart and my every thought and I am so thankful that nearly every day since I have joined the race He has used the Everfound song “God of the Impossible” to remind me who He is and what He can do. This song always comes on the radio at just the right time and it is the perfect pick me up…just picture me cruising down the road, singing this song off-key at the top of my lungs while thinking of all of the incredible things that will unfold over the next year and a half if I just dare to believe.
I’m not looking back at the life I had because now more than ever, I am ready for God to use me to be a part of the impossible! I am ready to go! Lord, send me!
