I decided I don’t want to experience life at an arms length anymore
I don’t want to watch my days pass by without truly entering into them
I don’t want to be a mere spectator because I’m created to be a participant–even more an initiator
I’ve seen the monotony and felt the hopelessness of a life lived void of emotions
I’ve experienced drought in my relationship with the Father because of a numbed spirit
The neglect of emotions that began out of desperation ended in a desperate cry for them to return
Abba is showing me the value that human emotions possess
He is slowly silencing the voice that so often says “forgive me for showing too much of what’s going on inside”
And with a voice so distinctly His, He is dignifying the sadness alongside the joy; the longing alongside the hope
Because how much more powerful is a testimony of God’s faithfulness paired with a genuine expression of joy?
How much more relatable a story of sorrow that elicits tears?
How much more would an honest expression of our emotions encourage others to be honest with theirs as well?
You see God created every fiber of our being–emotions and all
Each and every one he endowed with value the moment he spoke our lives into existence
I think it’s time to start using them for His glory instead of allowing them to bring us embarrassment & shame
I’m done experiencing life at an arms length & I hope someday you decide to be done too
