“I can’t take away your pain, because I would be taking away love.”
Everything I knew about Jesus has been completely upside down. God has been giving me the courage to unlearn who He is and start all over.
from ground zero.
“You are loving, right? Yes, yes you are. I know that much”
These thoughts run around my mind the second I wake up. The next thoughts I have right after come pretty quickly too:
“then why pain? why would you allow me to hurt like this? why would loneliness exist for those that love you?”
I have been debating these questions in my head for the last few months and this Sunday at one of the most grace filled churches I have been to, someone shared how she had been through a huge loss and has been asking God to take the pain away. She later stated that the Lord was breathing life into her again that morning, as she cried she shared with us that the Lord was telling her that He couldn’t take away the pain, because He would be taking away love as well.
I couldn’t believe that this woman, without knowing, answered one of my prayers too. In that one second, I knew more about my Father than I have ever known. He loves me so much that He wants my joy to be filled with color and brightness. He wants my love for Him to be vibrant.
Recently I’ve been seeing real love as a sunrise. You really only know what it means if you’ve seen the dark. If it wasn’t for those moments that I stood in the dark, I wouldn’t appreciate the warmth of the rays that He draws for me every morning. He wants me to taste and see real love.
Thank you Jesus for letting me watch the sunrise over and over again. Knowing your love is worth everything.
