You are enough: a letter to him
Father’s day is always hard. My story with my dad is complicated so I always toe the line on this day especially with social media. I don’t want to condemn my dad, who I haven’t spoken to in 14 ish years, but I want to honor my step dad who totally stepped up and has loved me well and supported me in every way since day one.
So today I thought I would write him a letter.
Dear Dad,
I know I have not reached out to you, I have let the past burn me and I have not loved you well and for that I am deeply sorry. I never told you how much it hurt when things changed in an instant, or that I didn’t understand.
I also didn’t tell you I love you.
I forgot to say that before that last trip, there was a lot of good moments. I didn’t thank you for giving up so much to spend time with me, I didn’t tell you I remember the good times. I do, and they were epic.
I didn’t tell you that you are worthy of love from me and Jesus.
You are enough. We don’t have to play catch up, or keep a tally of wrongs and hurts, we can just be. You once told me you live a rated R life and I live a pg-13 life. At the moment I didn’t know where that came from or what you wanted me to take from it but later, looking back I think you meant that I was too good for you.
I am not.
My whole life I have told my story and you have been a main character. I described the struggle and pain, the lack of explanation and confusion but today I just want to let it go. Jesus has redeemed my story. He gave me a family, dreams, passions, and people who love me. I hope one day you will be apart of that because you are my dad and I do love you.
I don’t have a timeline or an ultimatum I just wanted to tell you I love you, I forgive you, and I am here. I don’t want to shove religion down your face or condemn you, and I don’t want money, I just want you and I want to ask you to forgive me.
I wanted to tell you Happy Father’s Day for the first time in fourteen years, and let you know that I won’t miss another year!
