What would you do if you weren’t afraid?

$50,000

I once heard that as you become an adult $5,000 is a lot of money to owe, but not much to have in your bank account. It made me think back to childhood and what $5,000 would have looked like to me, because $100 felt like a million. I owe a lot more than that now, but money is all about perspective and sometimes we need a shift. 

I am, 25, and a missionary with a bunch of debt and some lofty funding goals for my next season of missions.  I can look at this like most people or I can look to my Father whose resources are limitless.  

Most people think I am crazy and need to just get a job and move on; put this AIM/ Missions thing behind me and grow up. Others see the kingdom value. Others know for themselves there is a higher calling and more value in obedience.  

Today I am going to take a step of obedience and share something very personal with you. I am going to tell you the personal details of my debt. 

It scares me to death, what you will think, how you will react, but sometimes God calls us to be brave. I highly value honesty and integrity and I want to embody that. 

Some college friends, Heath and Alyssa, recently shared their debt on social media and Alyssa shared about their plan to pay it off on her blog. P.S. read her blog, it’s fantastic. I was inspired. Their bravery and transparency reminded me we are all on a journey and that journey includes the ugly stuff like debt and mistakes. When we share real moments and not just our highlights it reminds others it’s okay to mess up, it’s okay to not have it all together. 

My journey is a little different. My debt story shows my mistakes, my choices, but also my schooling and transportation. For most of my life I believed the lie that you need credit to do things and I know some people will always believe that, but I’m done. I am learning to say no to things I want and things I think I need. I am learning to let people down instead of pretending I can afford to do things. I am learning and God is gently guiding me down this slippery slope. This is my confession to you, my brothers and sisters, and I thank you for walking through this with me with grace. I am letting go of shame and guilt and seeking Him. 

I still believe the current call on my life is to pursue G42 and Squad Leading, as always though, I hold those with open hands and if God changes my course I will follow. 

My goal is $50,000. Fifty thousand covers all my debt, G42, SQL, a new computer, and a round trip plane ticket to Spain. TheBible tells us to ask and we shall receive! I am asking, believing, and working towards the impossible. He is bigger than my mistakes, my debt, and my bank account!! 

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