We are finished with month one, but it hasnt even been a month since I was dropped off at launch.
Throughout this month I was frustrated. I couldnt find my words, I couldnt express what God was doing or what I was learning and to be honest, it sucked. I wanted to tell you all so much but I think God wanted me to be quiet and take it all in. I think he wanted me to be filled and stop trying to process every single thought, just be.
I can now see clearly he was beginning the process of making me NEW.
He is breathing life into me as I begin this journey. He is filling me up and sending me out. He is casting vision and setting the path.
He doesnt want me to live in the past, of what could been. Not if it was a blog or a conversation or a job or anything. He wants me to live for now and for future. He wants me, all of me. He wants to give me his eyes and his hands and most importantly his heart.
In making me new he is assuring me that my blogs are not to impress anyone so if they dont make sense or dont sound right I can still share them. My words are for me and for him.
Making me new is about a fresh start, a clean slate every time I screw it up. Its about forgiveness, mercy, and grace.
This month we had a couple times where we could leave where we were staying. It was dangerous and we felt unsafe. Each time God told us to stay, he wanted us to show the people of Lavender Hill he mercy and grace, his forgiveness. God is making Lavender Hill NEW, he is making Cape Town and South Africa NEW and that takes some time. It takes forgiveness, mercy and grace.
Next month I get the ridiculous pleasure of serving with my whole squad at El Shaadi orphanage in Swaziland. I am eager to see what God has in store and to share more of it with you.
Shout out to my supporters! I dont know if I have shared with you.. but I am a treasurer for my team and get to see first had how your hard earned money is handled! It has been a blessing to work with the treasurers on our squad stewarding the money God gave us through you. Wow how a dollar can stretch!!
I am still 6,000 ish away from being fully funded and cant thank yall enough for getting me here. Glory to God!
