Sunrise from our home.
We made it to Vietnam and we are near the coast, can’t say much now but we love it and have wifi! So send an email or text my way becuase one of my most beloved things to receive on the race is texts and emails form you people. Today I got an email form my friend Alison who has been amazing at keeping in touch and loving me well from away!
She said “You seem to be in constant high spirits from what I can tell from your blog”
I wanted to shed some light on this..
The World Race is amazing. I have changed and grown SO much. I am getting the opportunity of a lifetime to see the world and love on people who don’t know Jesus.
But some days are really hard, some days are mundane and boring, and sometimes living in constant community sucks.
Is it worth it?
YES.
You get the finished product. You get me cleaned up, you see me through my internet filter.
I get to choose what you see, what you read, but my WR family sees it all and all of it isn’t pretty. At the end of the last month we had debrief, we get debrief a couple times throughout the year and our coaches and mentor and squad leaders sit us down and help us process all that has happened. They pray with us, they talk about our team dynamic and they process all of our processing to make sure we are good. At this debrief we were asked about our teams, since this was the first debrief since our change at month 5.
I said boldly that this team lets me be me, I have freedom with them. They accept me for me and let me walk in struggle and processing, healing and joy.
Some days it’s
bitterness
jealousy
selfishness
pride
judgement
complacency
all this ugly is usually followed by bringing it to Jesus and my team is beautifully patient with me through this and in return I show them the same grace.
So this whole thing is not perfect, and neither am I, far from it. I just wanted you to know behind all the fun pictures, funny hashtags, and b squad pride is a very real everyday struggle.
If you haven’t watched the video at the top -it’s awesome, I am in it for a second. What you see in that video is real- SO real. Those moments are epic and precious, but they are only a glimpse in to this crazy journey.
Am I homesick, do I get tired of the everyday, the feedback and team time?
Sometimes, but the everyday struggle and pull, the more that He has for me is so worth it.
All the bad days, the so-so days, the hard times make the good so much sweeter. So that’s what I share with you. I share the highs, the revelations, the wow moments because I have a sweet tooth and love sharing it with you.
My encouragement for you is to no believe the lie that what we perceive is real. This only leads to comparison. We are racers look at your life and see things we want and you look at our pictures and long for adventure… we’re never fully satisfied.
Let’s be satisfied where he has us! I’m going to work on being more transparent so y’all see the full story!
Thanks for everything.
P.S. FULLY FUNDED because of YOU!!!!!!!!!
