I’m all packed up. Today is our last day with our ministry in Cambodia. We will have a goodbye//DANCE party tonight with our students and hosts, then off to debrief in the morning.
As I sit here, rain fills the afternoon sky, I am overwhelmed by his peace.
I am taken aback by how happy I am and how hard it will be to leave this place. Each month it is hard to leave but there is so much excitement on the horizon, it’s easy to overlook the sadness in light of what is to come.
Thoughts linger in my mind..what if I came back here.
Some racers embark on this adventure looking for possible long term places to serve. I have never felt the Lord calling me to that. I love student ministry in America, I love being near my family, I love seeing students fall in love with Jesus and missions. I didn’t think I could be happy being a long term missionary or having to rely on supporters for everything.
Happy is such a relative term.
I don’t know what he has for me but I am sure opening up to a lot more ideas of what it may look like.
I know that each day I fall a little more in love with the places and faces of the nations. I know that each child I see I want to scoop up and take with me. I know he is moving and working in me and through me and I know he can do that wherever I am.
And that makes me happy.
I have always had this picture of happy. It involves things like student loans being paid off, being a wife and mother, having a job, being self sufficient.
Jesus wants us to be reliant not self sufficient.
I am getting a good taste of that while still walking in this season of living by faith.
The glory is his, not mine so being self sufficient is kind of a waste of time. At this time I am learning to lean on him and find happiness there. This is no easy road but afternoons like this make it bearable.
Sadly month 6 is coming to a close but I am so excited to see what revelations and lessons he brings me in month 7 and how he brings my team through new challenges.
In a week my squad will head to Vietnam! My team will be serving an Orphanage near the coast. I can not say much more at this time because Vietnam is a close country, but we are so pumped!
Thank you so much for your continued support and love. Recent donors I have not forgotten you** I am SO thankful** and will be sending you a message soon, so sorry for the delay.
So much love for you people.
Hope you find some adventure today.
**P.S. despite what it looks like I do not wear this dress everyday.. but shout our to Ali, it’s original owner!! Free pile for the win!
