About a month ago I was going through some serious spiritual warfare… I was stressing about getting all of the last minute things tied up before my September launch, struggling heavily with my nonbeliever friends and family who do not understand what I am going to be doing in this next year, and simply the overwhelming thought of what I WILL be doing this next year! I went to bed that night, with a lot on my mind and heart. I slipped into a deep and concentrated sleep with a very powerful dream. I was with some of my squadmates who were all feeling as down and negative Nancy as I was. As we were bouncing “what-if’s” off of each other regarding funding, supplies, our specific callings, etc., a giant brown cloud started to form over us all. We instantly knew that this cloud was God, and He was absorbing all that we were throwing at Him. The “what if’s” were interrupted with, “No, that will be taken care of”. Whatever we tried to throw at the cloud… He absorbed it. It was like a giant umbrella of love was over us all, and the peace that I felt in this dream is indescribable. I was able to wake up and fall back into this dream numerous times throughout the night, and the calm it radiated was incredible. Needless to say, I was much less stressed from there on out, knowing that Father is taking care of the negative thoughts I have.
Yesterday was one of those days that I knew I was in exactly the right place at the right time. I had met a friend at a concert I went to the previous day, and since we lived close to each other we decided to meet up for “the world’s best chai” in Ft. Collins. I was a little hesitant, only in that I didn’t really know him, and didn’t want any of this to be for selfish motives. So I gave it to God and told Him to take the day in His hands, and He did. Ian, my new friend, (who is an incredible prayer warrior and a very contagious, positive spirit) and I had some really great talks over this delicious chai in the attic of an obscure hole in the wall coffee shop. We were discussing prayer, music, faith, school, miracles, and anything else. During a lull in the conversation I looked up to admire the unique hand painted ceiling tiles decorated by various customers. One tile caught my eye…
This was my dream. To a T. The words that the umbrella are deflecting are Fear – Inequity – Lies – Racism – Ignorance – Hate – Deceit – Prejudice. This was God’s beautiful reminder that He IS watching out for ME and does CARE for ME, PERSONALLY. My big brown cloud is caring for me, as is He for you.
Tune into Him so that He can show you how much He loves you too.
