I am lying on my bed in this heaven of a house that I can call home for the next month. We are so blessed to be here safely, with our bags, with team Perisseuo, with showers and toilets, in this beautiful city of Dragonesti (pernounced Dragonesht), Romania.
After 98 hours of traveling, we are all pooped tired and ready for some solid sleep. These past four days of traveling have been very interesting for me. For the obvious of having crazy long layovers in many airports, getting super good at going through security, napping on any tile floor I can find, and always justifying spending millions of dollars on a sandwich.
But what got me the most were the stupid lies the enemy was trying to plant inside of me. Using the facts that I was hungry and sleep deprived, he continuously tried to convince me of not being enough. That I wasn’t really meant to be here, my heart isn’t really into this, that I don’t know as much about God and the bible as everyone else, that I am not going to mesh well with my team, that someone else could be performing miracles in these next 11 months better than I can… All of these lies that were slowly starting to settle in. Again, being as tired as I was, I felt like the victim and that nothing was going well. And of course this is all happening before I have been able to have some quality time with Father. As soon as I open my devotional for the day it says, I AM ALWAYS AVAILABLE TO YOU. Regardless of the fact that I am “feeling” distant from God and His love, it is only a feeling and is not to be confused with reality. Thank God!! He is always here with us, and all I need to do is tune into His grace and warmth. I was soon after making some declarations over myself (something that this WR community does, and it. is. fantastic.)
I am royalty.
I am His cherished one.
I am in this walk WITH Father, and nothing can stand against His will.
I am alive because of Jesus’ sacrifice, and I have life to share with others.
I am made for worship.
I am here to bring Kingdom to the dark places of the world.
I am made to shine His love-light.
I am loved.
I am ENOUGH.
I am God’s favorite child… as are you… and you. He loves us all SO MUCH! We need to remind ourselves of this daily, because the joy that His presence brings is incomparable to any other happiness you will know.
I am so thankful that I am here. I am thankful for this calling Father has put on me to be here, spreading His word and getting closer to Him.
My prayers have consisted of asking for wisdom from Father, for being in line with the Holy Spirit, for vulnerability and grace in my team to begin this bonding process, and for the strength to continuously press into my relationship with Father.
