i am NOT brave.

I have never really enjoyed telling people what I was doing with my life for the past couple of years. And I mean that in the way of I was lost, I was just working, wasn’t in school, single, and had no idea what I wanted to be doing with my life at that point. But now I can proudly say that I will be fulfilling Gods calling for my life and going to the World Race for His glory. And for some reason I always get told that I am brave for doing this and I have to be honest I am far from Brave….

I have chosen to talk about this “compliment” that I receive from people because it just keeps repeating in my head saying I am not the brave one.

Now it is a lovely comment but its not the truth. What I will be doing for 11 months is not brave in my eyes but instead it is simply my calling. I see this journey with God as a way to fully give my heart and soul and body to Him by allowing Him to show me the world through His eyes. I plan on going on this endeavor with an open heart and also a heart that is longing to be broken by the people of this world.

I don’t see this mission trip as something to show that I am brave but I want to do it to show people that I will listen to God and obey Him. He has called me do mission work and He has given me a heart to help other people who need help and also show them His love. I have chosen to give up my comforts in this life to go and do as I am told because I know His plans are far greater than mine!

But what is even better is knowing that I don’t have to be brave to go do this. And I know that I will have to put some fears aside and I just need to trust in Him, and He will take all my fears and anxiety away when I am gone and leading up to me leaving.

The greatest part of being told that I am brave for doing this isn’t saying thank you when people tell me but telling them the truth. I am not brave, I actually have a lot of fears about this but I trust in my Lord and that is all the strength I need.