You don’t even know when you will be leaving!
What a wakeup call. Talking to a family friend about job hunting this evening, she reminded me of a profound reality: nothing is completely guaranteed.
While I am planning to leave in January, I don’t call the shots. As enthusiastic and excited as I am, this is not my trip, and these are not my plans. They never were, and never will be. This is about God and His plans for my life.
I am confident God has called me on this trip and trust Him to get me there, but no one really knows God’s timing. So many things could change in the next 5 months. I have no idea what He has in store. I don’t mean to be pessimistic or doubtful, but God can do whatever He wants. That’s why He’s God. He created light and life with His words.
He knows everything: past, present, and future. I only have a few pieces of this puzzle right now. I can see my past and my present. This is a season of preparation, job hunting, and support raising, so that’s what I am doing.
Between now and January, something might fall through. I might not have $3,500 in time for Training Camp in October, or I might not have $7,500 in time for Launch. I might get sick. Something might happen to my family. The possibilities are endless.
All I know is I am here. I get to be with my family and friends. I get to enjoy the Olympia summer for the first time in 3 years. I get to invest in what is here while I prepare for what is to come. I am here until it’s time to leave, and only God know exactly when that will happen. I can’t waste today being overwhelmed and uncertain about the future. He knows what He’s doing, and it’s going to be more than okay regardless.
