I’m
coming to the end of it. Once again I have mixed emotions. I’m relieved
that this lifestyle is almost over and I’ll get to use a clothes dryer
again. But I’m also used to this lifestyle and struggle to wrap my head
around the idea that it will end, because it’s what I’ve known for so
long.
It
took me awhile to get to the place where I was ready to go home, and I
am, but I can’t even imagine how difficult it will be in a few days to
say “see ya” to these wonderful, amazing people that I’m so accustomed
to seeing everyday and each month.
Already
I’ve decided to start saying the final things I want to make sure that
I say before the end. Therefore I’ve already made people cry.
Oh well, I want my squad to know how much they mean to me and how much
God knew I needed them in my life. If you are a squadmate reading this,
thank you for putting up with me this year, for loving me and pouring
into me…I couldn’t have become the woman I am today without you or
all that you did.
In
a couple of days I fly back home, and then begin the “what’s next” part
of my life. Only I don’t know what that is, and that’s okay. God will
reveal it to me in His timing. But I hope that before I run off and do
something else I get to spend a little time with my family and friends.
Going back home is a whole other unknown, but I do know that God will
be with me every step of the way.
I just wanted to make sure I got some thoughts out there before getting busy and then not blogging at all.
