I’m going to be real honest. I showed up at the conference
with a bad attitude, not really caring about being here, and frustrated that we
had to spend our debrief in the tents. There were mandatory meals and sessions
we had to go to which drastically cut down free time. I was in a bad place.
Fortunately, God meets us where we are at, and loves us too much to leave us
there.
At first I was stubborn and resistant, knowing that if I
tried to enter into worship I’d break. I had been trying to keep myself
together for a couple of weeks, especially after I sprained my ankle (kind of a
bad one too). I knew that God wanted to bring me to a deeper level, only I
couldn’t bring myself to go there. However, I do love the presence of God and
couldn’t help but want it. In the first night of worship my resistance broke
down, I started crying and some of my friends came around me and prayed for me.
Then God sent a girl I didn’t even know over with some scriptures and words of
love and encouragement for me. I decided that night there was no going back, I
decided that I would go deeper.
During the rest of the week many other words were spoken
over me, I kept getting filled, and was freed from the negativity that had
plagued me as long as I could remember. My joy has been restored, and I’m so
excited to see what the next couple of months have in store. I saw the same
type things happening in my squadmates too. God really filled our squad back up
for these next 2 months.
God revealed to many people on my squad what they’ll be doing after the race….including
some of my teammates. I still don’t have any knowledge on what life after the
race will hold for me, I do know, however, that God will reveal that to me in
His timing, and right now I’m okay with that. If you want to keep praying about
that I would appreciate it.
