Like many of my squad mates, I too am kind of freaking out a little bit. Okay make that a lot. I keep myself awake most nights just thinking of what I can be doing, praying, crying, and being scared that this is just asking absolutely too much. I spent many times wondering if I should have just settled for my life the way it was. I mean I had things. Not a lot, but I was provided for. I had a job, a wonderful ministry, a house, a car. I wondered if maybe trying to do this is too big of a goal, maybe I should have scaled it back a little. Maybe it was too big for the resources and the comfort of my life.
But you know what I have realized, it isn’t.
As I was preparing to apply for this race, one of the things I wrote in my journal simply said “Am I crazy? Or can I really do this.” two days later, I wrote at the bottom of the page three words.
This.
Is.
Tangible.
It is not easy, but it is tangible. It is possible.
My support is going pretty well. I mean I would like for there to be some magic way that I could just suddenly have $15,500 but that is not possible. There are some days when I just feel like it is absolutely not going to work out… but that is when I forget to rely on the promises that I have from God. Promises like these:
“And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7
“The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid” Psalm 118:6
“Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord will be kept safe.” Proverbs 29:25
And a slew of others.
So while fear and trust are proving to be issues among myself and my entire squad I am reminded daily that it is God who is the holder of all things financial and if it is his will for me to go on this trip then he will provide. He has been providing.
Right now I am working towards my first goal of $3500. That much is due by October 2nd. That much is due cash money in my account. I am only about $1300 away from that goal right now. That seems like kind of a lot, but it is reachable. It can be done, but I need your help.
God has been providing with a couple of amazing monthly donors (you know who you are and here is your shoutout!! I love you!!!) But there is always room for more. If you are thinking of becoming a monthly supporter, but were thinking of waiting until January to start… you don’t have to wait. You can start now. As a matter of fact it would be amazing for you to start now. Because starting now would make me that much closer to each one of my goals.
If you have been debating if you think it is right for you to give, whether it is $5 or $500 then let me know what your fears are in giving. God has promised that our needs will be taken care of. If you are right on the line debating because it might only sort of be possible financially for you, why don’t you step out and give God a chance not only to show up in my life by way of provision from you, but in your life as well by provision that will come from Him. It will be worth it and you really won’t even miss it.
So here I am, asking so very nicely if you would send me into the nations. There are two kind of people, the kind who go and the kind who send. I am a “go” person… so I am asking you to send me. I knew that when I signed up for this it wouldn’t be easy. But God is blowing my mind daily with the things he is providing for me. Give him the opportunity to blow your mind and provide for you. Please prayerfully consider partnering with me for this mission.
“God will make this happen, for he who calls you is faithful.” 1 Thess. 5:24
