coming to an end. This month has been full of experiences that were challenging
and made me dig deep for understanding.
I’ve found that the longer I have been here in Cornesti, the
more the kids here have captivated my heart. I feel it has quickly went from
thinking the kids are cute and enjoying time with them to loving and protecting
them and seeing their true personalities. As I was pulling one of my little
ones, Lilian, out of a headlock and stopping the fist of a kid more than twice
the age and size of Lilian from hitting his head, I could feel myself getting
more frustrated and flustered than I have been in quite a while. It was my mama
bear instincts coming out, ready to protect my kids from harms way. It made me
think what else can I do? How can what I do now help later? Who will be
protecting him? As I hugged a mother whose son is battling and dying from bone
cancer, my heart broke even more and grew more upset that Viko is hurting and
who knows the possibilities of what the situation would look like with better
health care. Hugging a mother who is facing loosing her son just does not feel
right. Again, I had the same feelings of what more can I do? And just the other
day, as my kids had a look on their face of being pushed aside as a huge new
group of children that joined the kids program for the day, my heart broke more
for them. And once more It was the thought process of how else can I protect
these kids I have come to love? What more can be done?
With all these thoughts and experiences and even more that
have hit my heart I’ve been challenged with what to do with it all. How to
approach these experiences. How to process them. What the Lord wants me to take
away from them and how he wants to work in these instances. With all this, I have
found myself having to put my trust in the Lord knowing he has the plans and
will take care of his children. The rest and peace I find leaving behind these
people comes from the reminder and knowing that God is in control and has more
power than I ever will and is more capable than I ever will be to take care them.He is a big God of justice and mercy and love. Without a doubt, these kids and people have captured my heart and taught me
lessons I won’t forget. Here are some of my favorite pictures of the kids I have grown to love.
