1/8/2012
I can count many times that I have been given school assignments to make a list of my dreams and it would be interesting to go back and look at those lists to see how my life has changed and how many of those goals have already been accomplished in my life. I'm not trying to toot my own horn or anything, but many of my initial dreams have been achieved. I finished college as a Civil Engineer (still trying to figure out how that happened, but I'll take it), I married an amazing Christian man who loves me and challenges me, I have had a very good job by American Dream standards, lets face it I am even traveling around the world spending an extended length of time in several unique countries. Come on people, I went BUNGEE JUMPING off the worlds tallest bungee bridge overlooking the Indian Ocean in South Africa! I have had the opportunity to accomplish some pretty cool things.
After reflecting on my life and experiencing some seriously life-changing events in the past few months, it is time for me to perform a self-assessment and determine what things I still want to do. Who am I? Who do I want to be? What part does God play in my life? What does my character consist of? What breaks my heart? Why? What am I passionate about? What are goals that I have for myself? What goals do I have for my family? I could go on…
I have found that these questions are very hard for me to answer. I feel as if I have come to a place in my life that I have no clue of what comes next. I want so badly to hear from God and have Him tell me exactly what our next steps in life should be. I want Him to tell me what Chris and I are supposed to do after the World Race. I want to know that what He tells me to do will be achievable and easy. I want to please God in every aspect of my life and grow closer to Him everyday. This is really what I want with my life.
However, outside of living for God, I don't have much other direction in my life. Why not? If I am earnestly seeking God, why don't I trust that I can have desires and goals for my life and they be in alignment with God's plan for me? I have been telling myself that if I have goals for myself, then I must not seeking God's purpose for me. I have decided that this is not true.
I want to spend time in the next month or two and genuinely answer some of these questions. I want to come up with some concrete goals for me to achieve in my life. Just because I have achieved the goals that I wrote for myself when I was a kid in school does not mean that the rest of my life should go by without any direction or purpose. If I want to have a satisfying life then I need to have something to achieve! To be satisfied by accomplishing goals is to be human! Whether my goals are to become tangibly closer with God or to go bungee jumping twice a year for the next 50 years, I have to have something in my life that I can be passionate about and pursue.
My challenge to you is to do the same. Take time to assess your life. Recognize accomplishments and celebrate them. Identify areas for growth and develop a plan to grow! Make a list of goals that you want to accomplish in the next year, or in your lifetime so that you can begin to really pursue them.
