Your hands shake.
Your throat closes.
Your joints feel weak.
Your mind reels.
You've just been diagnosed a team change.
The road ahead looks daunting and frightening.
And it is.
Job 6:11 "What strength do I have, that I should
still hope?
What prospects, that I should be
patient?"
You wonder how this could happen to you.
You wonder why this is happening to you.
You wonder where you can possibly find hope in the middle of such confusion and pain.
Psalm 10:17 "You hear, O LORD, the desire of the
afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen
to their cry,"
Truthfully, while circumstances and friends and loved ones might be able to comfort you and help you find your way, you can discover genuine, everlasting, get-you-throught-your-darkest-days hope in only one place and in only one person: God.
You can question his purposes. (He knows what he's doing, but you may not)
You can be angry at him. (He's big enough to take it.)
You can howl at him in pain. (He invites you to share your deepest hurts.)
You can tell him you feel abandoned. (He's promise to never desert you.)
Psalm 25:4-5 "Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long."
But even in the middle of your questioning and anger and pain, if you seek him, you'll find him. And, in God's miraculous and mysterious way, He'll give you hope.
Does that sound unrealistic?
Perhaps. However you may feel about it, the truth remains. You can find hope in the midst of a team change diagnosis– a hope that faces reality with a strength and grace and courage that doesn't come from within you… but from Him within you.
Psalm 119:50 "My comfort in my suffering is this:
Your promise preserves my life."
Bulgaria is great.
My team is great.
This life is great.
Hope is the one thing that everyone can hold onto. You just need to catch your grip.