The more the days pass, the more nervous I get! Usually, that's how it works when you have a deadline coming up. I never expected time to go so fast. But now, I am just a short 32 days away from my first deadline on $3,500… and quite frankly, I have a LOONNNGGG ways to go. I have been going to different stores, churches, radio stations, news reporters, and people asking them if they'd have an interest in possibly supporting me in this Journey, and the interest has been great. But the funds have not been, as some may say, "flowing in". I can only imagine what I look like from God's eyes– I'm thinking something like a chicken with its head cut off and a stick for a wing. I just can't seem to grip my mind around my stress.
There are so many encouraging people in my life, however. And each time I explain that I'm going insane trying to think of ways to get the money raised in time, they always say to me "Amanda, you just need to let go and let God" and "Where there is a will, there is a way" and "Love, God wouldn't have let you be accepted into this mission unless you were meant to be there… He WILL provide!" I have the greatest friends, right? I honestly don't know what I'd do if I didn't have them to keep me sane. And the cool part about it is, that God placed each one with His almighty and loving hands! SO SWEET!!
As you may be able to tell, I'm nervous. I have butterflies all the time because all I ever think about is WR and how God is going to use me. All I ever want to be is His light and a disciple. I want to take the Gospel around the world and show everyone how incredible the Creator is. And tonight, I am letting go. I am letting go of all my worries and anticipation. I am letting go of the stress and the constant questioning. When God calls you somewhere, He doesn't expect you to get there on your own. I will no longer turn my back and go MY way. My face will be to the Lord, and through Him, this will all be possible!
