So, everything just got pretty real. In the past few weeks I have graduated college, said goodbye to old friends, and hello to ones. And at this point, I only have 3 months left in the states before the race begins.
This has all seemed so far off, until now. Up until now, the only way I felt about the race was pure joy and excitement. But then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I think it was when I bought my first item for the race (which was just a spork from REI, cause ya gotta start off small! haha), that it all started to become real.
While friends are settling into life and the American dream, I’ll be living out of a backpack for 11 months, eating new foods, being surrounded by all new people, serving in some crazy places all over the world. It is all so overwhelming. I am honestly scared. While everyone else is making and saving money, I’m trying to fundraise 16,000 dollars. For me, this is by far the most intimidating part…I keep thinking how in the world will I ever raise it all?
But then, Jesus reminds me of his power. My devotional today simply said,
“I, the creator of the universe, am with you and for you. What more could you need?”
BOOM. Just like that.
“When you feel some lack, it is because you are not connecting with Me at a deep level. I offer abundant Life. Your part is to trust Me, refusing to worry about anything.”
I have to remind myself of this constantly. For his power is made perfect in my weakness!
Despite my fears, He will provide everything I need on the race. Every last dollar I need to fundraise, every piece of equipment. My job is to trust him. To spend time with him. To pray. He will provide simply because he is God.
I also have to remind myself that this is what I am called to do. It is not my role to compare the next year of my life to someone else’s. We all have different paths. That is what is so beautiful about the Lord! He made us each so distinctively to fulfill specific purposes!
So, as September approaches faster and faster, I will continue to trust and hope in Him!
“What then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?” Romans 8:31-32
