I’ve been living in fear.
There I said it, and yes, I immediately want to take it back. But it’s true.
The last several weeks have been hard for me in many ways and I finally admitted to myself that I’ve been living in fear. I’ve been a slave to fear allowing it to control my decisions and actions.
What is it I’m afraid of?
So many things.
I’m afraid I’m not ready to leave my home, my family, my comfort for a year. I’m afraid I’m not going to have the finances I need. I’m afraid my back isn’t going to get better again and it’s going to hinder me. I’m afraid I am not, dare I say, “good enough” to even be doing what I’m about to.
I’ve heard that the Scriptures says 365 times to not fear, one for each day. I’ve never done research to see if that’s actually true, but let me tell you, there are so many passages that speak of fear.
One thing I noticed after reading several passages was that when the Lord tells us to not fear He follows by reminding us who He is or promising that He is with us no matter what.
Here’s just a few examples:
Psalm 27:1 – The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom should I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life – of whom should I be afraid?
Isaiah 41:10 – Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand.
Deuteronomy 31:6 – Be strong and courageous; don’t be terrified or afraid of them. For it is the Lord your God who goes with you; He will not leave you or forsake you.
I no longer need to be afraid about anything because no matter what God is God. No matter what He will be with me wherever I go. He will never leave me, ever. So instead of focusing on my fears I have been speaking Truth about who He is. I know that He is on my side. I know that He is for me. And not only has He not called me to live this way, but He has given me His Spirit that can abolish all of my fears!
I wish I could tell you that all of my fears are 100% gone. But that wouldn’t be true. I’m still working on releasing them to Him. However, I am choosing to turn my eyes to Jesus every day and focus on Him. I want to choose a life of freedom. I don’t want to live in bondage to fear anymore. And I know that fear doesn’t stand a chance when I am in the presence of the living God!
I have been preparing for this journey for almost 10 months now and I can’t believe that in just 2 short months I will finally be leaving.
I am so grateful for the prayers and support I have already received. I am currently about $5000 short from my overall goal of $19,800, so if you feel led at all to support me financially you can do so through my blog, or if you have any questions please do not hesitate to reach out to me!!
All the love!
LYS
