Wow, it is so easy to be afraid. And now more than ever with the current state of our world. I’m going to be honest, there are some days where I get so wrapped up in fear while anxiety and worry fill my head. But we live for the Prince of Peace and that has been such an important reminder for me lately. That we don’t have to carry our own burdens or deal with them alone. God loves us so much that He takes all of our worries away and gives us peace and love and that is the best security there is. I am so grateful for community and that in the Kingdom we have the huge blessing of being vulnerable and sharing our fears with our brothers and sisters who can remind us of the truth in hard times. The enemy is so good at making us feel like we are struggling all alone when that is never the case.
I am going to be open and honest about my struggles during this time. Fundraising has been a huge fear of mine from the minute I committed to going on the race and it only got harder with the pandemic. Some days I feel firm in my faith and I know the Lord will open doors when needed and close doors that are not meant for me. Other days I am so afraid of not hitting my goals for the trip and what that looks like for me. I have focused all of my time and attention for the past year on preparing for this trip and it has helped me grow and learn so much. At the end of the day I choose to have peace knowing that my God is going to guide me wherever I go and that He has plans for me. Not one singular plan that I can mess up but multiple plans; constantly changing and shifting as I evolve and grow too. And I am so thankful to know that I don’t have to have all of the answers in life but I can take it one day at a time and focus on the truth of the Word with even the smallest ounce of faith.
I am quite far from my fundraising goal and that causes a lot of stress. I am praying that God moves in big ways and opens doors wide for me to make it on this trip. Thank you for all who have supported me in prayer, financially, and with constant encouragement. I couldn’t do this without your partnership in the Kingdom. If you have any questions or prayer requests, I am always available to chat.
love always, Alyssa xoxo
