I can admit it now; I need help! I cannot do this alone.
I came to project searchlight (PSL) because I wanted to see my squad mates, to be encouraged, to hear from God, to find direction because I was drowning in hopelessness and desperation at home.
The culture that the Race provides is life-giving, being home for 7 weeks I realized wasn’t as alive as I thought it would be. I spent my time trying to find a job, figuring out money, going to church, shopping at Target, trying to figure out what life looked like in America. To say I was struggling was an under statement. I was burnt out, fed up, uninspired, and life-less.
I had a lot of questions about what God wanted me to do next and no answers. Project searchlight was a time of rest, a place to process, and space to breathe, be still, and allow Him to speak. I found out about a lot of opportunities that AIM offers, but it wasn’t a recruiting week – maybe one day I will end up working with AIM but most likely not. This organization is not recruiting people to work for them; they are equipping people and encouraging people to follow the Lord. To seek Him first, before the job, the house, the relationship, before the most important thing on your list. This week was a defining moment in my life. The place where I stopped seeking answers from God and started seeking His face because it is His face!
I am so glad I got away with God this week. With anything, you get out of it what you put into it and I am so happy I asked for help. I will go home to my family, continue job hunting, going to church, shopping at Target but not because that is my life – but because I have life and I want to bring it to these places.
